Nicholas Peter Moreno-Campoy

Epitaph

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To My Beloved Nicholas Peter

Oh how it hurts to have given you up unexpectedly and unwillingly. Not to feel with the palm of my hand your heart beat against your chest or its triumphant and rhythmic music thumping against my ears. I did not see your open eyes, or the flutter of your eyelids as you ..... Oh, how it hurts so, one can't begin to explain. I only feel my tears sliding down my face as if an unending waterfall. To have a mounrnful heart within this heaving chest accompanied by a healing C-section. To have left the hospital with my empty arms outstretched and yearning to hold you. These swollen breasts, with their ... longing to ... their .... denied. Oh, how it hurts that all those dreams I had of you on Earth are all too quickly gone. ..... But I say to you that I truly loved you since the beginning and more when you were in my womb. This is not the experience I sought, but must seriously accept. I dare not say goodbye. But I say "......." ....... your mother .....